A little bit of restless rheumatism in my soul

I'm not well inside. I've got an ache in my throat that refuses to go away. I feel a little bit let down by myself. I'm not able to make up my mind as to what I should be doing? Should let things go or should I continue living what I know is a lie?
I've got a little bit of restless rheumatism in my soul. And right now, I have absolutely no idea what to do. I want to cry, I want to laugh, I want to wander the streets looking for an answer. I have no idea who I am and who I've become. I've changed, inexplicably so. What I really, really want to do is cry. Cry untill eternity comes.......

Pune Potterings - II

Is it just me or is Swine flu a little overrated? I mean I can totally get that its a pandemic and everything but do we need to contribute to the Panic? Does the media have to blow everything out of proportion?
I think it's probably because there are so many MCPs around and they're afraid that they are more susceptible to it is probably what's causing the Panic. What's ur take?

Why I love 'Fashion' (The Priyanka Chopra starrer that was the dark horse at numerous awards shows)

Apart from the bling, the booty on display and the debauchery that has been so successfully put on film? I love it because of the finale. That point where Meghna is poised to go down the ramp for her make or break sequence and she gets a call saying that her friend's dead and instead of breaking down and flubbing it, she walks and boy does she walk! She saunters down the runway like the pro that she is and she rebuilds her career.
That scene had me rooting for Meghna, it was like not only did Meghna's career depended on her walking everyone's hopes did too. Anybody watching that shot cannot fail to be moved by the sheer grit and determination that's needed to make difficult decisions, and not just difficult, but life altering!
Its become my tagline, if Meghna could do it, So can I. Kudos Priyanka and Kudos Madhur. Love ya guys.

Sexism is alive and well, thank u very much for not asking!

And here I thought MCPs existed only within the boundaries of the NCR. I hate to say this but I have absolutely no choice, they exist outside that hallowed territory and boy, do they make their presence felt.
I came bang up against the one of the biggest examples this morning and did I hate it. He parades around in the guise of a benevolent grandpa but underneath that sweet and sunny exterior lies a true blue MCP. In all other respects the man is beyond reproach and has enough power up his sleeve to pack a punch when he wants to but then why did he have to go and spoil his image by behaving like a bloody pack rat? Why I ask you? And when the hell am I going to get out of my habit of putting people on a pedestal?